

WALKING AT NIGHT UNDER A WAXING GIBBOUS Paul Bogard

I
have always loved the way the world comes down in speed and size at
night. Less noise, fewer cars, fewer people. I can feel myself exhale at
night, as though I've been holding my breath all day, dealing with the
stress of daily life. I have to believe it's been this way for countless
people over
the ages--night and its beautiful darkness give us the
chance to exhale, to breathe out the day's worry and breathe in the
night's calm. Before Luna came along, I had seldom walked at night,
before midnight, getting out into the neighborhood. Sometimes, but not
regularly, not as a practice, a regular returning ritual, a set part of
every day.
She
would race across lawns, from house to house--even back behind the
houses, finding who knows what, her birddog senses fully alive--then
return to check in, make sure I was coming along. And I was, slowly,
sauntering--these walks weren't about getting anywhere, or exercise. I'd
just stroll along, down the sidewalk, down to the park, around the
block. We seldom ran into other people. That's one thing you notice when
you get out at night,
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"To know the dark, go dark." Wendell Berry |
But
there was always a small twist of sadness, just seeing how few people
were out. We know so little about night, about darkness--we ignore it,
avoid it, fear it. And yet, it's so important to our lives. There were
often nights so beautiful--a moon, a soft rain, huge snowflakes floating
down--that I could not believe Luna and I were the only ones out.
Last
night, all my shades were drawn. I watched a three-hour hockey game (my
Minnesota Gophers), the blue glow of my television seeping out into the
night. I was so cut off from the night outside--there could have been a
herd of buffalo encircling my house, or... anything, really, and I
would have had no idea. It was a night like most nights now--Luna gone
eight months--where I lower my shades at dusk and don't go back outside.
I suppose it's because I knew there were no buffalo encircling my
house--or anything, really, out of the ordinary. It was just night. And
with no Luna to get me out, I stay inside.
Except
that last night I walked in my neighborhood before midnight. I changed

And
it was, that wonderful old moon, as it always has been. Around the
block I strolled, remembering, soaking up the beautiful night. Breathing
again, feeling connected--to my past, to the me I love, to this
wonderful world. Luna with me, every step of the way.
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"To know the dark, go dark." --Wendell Berry
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