Stirring Towards The Sun

"Au milieu de l'hiver, j'apprenais enfin qu'il y avait en moi un été invincible."-- Albert Camus

Solstice greetings, surviviors!   We made it past the latest apocalypse and apparently, we are still here.  And in the words of Dr. Who, we are now "halfway out of the dark".  All over the world, winter solstice is marked by celebrations and rituals marking the return of the light and new beginnings.  After weeks of increasing nights, we are stirring towards the sun.

Seems a perfect time for reflection and shedding of the dark we want to leave behind.  Light a candle, write down your regrets, and make a plan to let them go.

In ten days I'll start the January Challenges.  This year let's go for broke:  31 days to a shinier, happier, *new and improved you!  The blog will feature a tip and a challenge a day for increasing happiness, health, community, and creativity.  Your participation and comments are invited and welcome.

Song of the day:


Wishing you warm blessings for the holidays,
Jana
(*Not that you aren't perfect just as you are...)

January Challenge Coming

Watch this space.  In January I will be doing my traditional Month O'Daily Blogs, most likely featuring a daily challenge. Last year's 31 days of creativity will be hard to top.  Let me know if you have a wish for this year's theme.

Meanwhile, for those of you heading back to the ole nest for a winter reunion, here's the annual Home for The Holidaze re-run.

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 "Having a family is like having a bowling alley installed in your head"-- Martin  Mull

Christmas and Hanukkah are boom times for therapists.  What is it about holidays that cause so much trouble?  There's the  obvious:   the extra activities to cram in too already crazy busy lives, the financial strains, the booze and sugar hangovers.

And there's  the poignant and sometimes painful difference between the Hallmark commercials of ideal family communion and reality of messy humans coming together with their messy selves.

We spend the latter years of our family-of-origin time struggling to develop identities that resonate with our souls.  Part of that journey means turning away from the very sources of our safety and nurturing-- to be able to find enough differences between ourselves and our parents that we can leave them.


And then the holidays come.  And with it, questions unconscious or not.


Can I be different and still belong?  Can I be true to me and still be loved by you?

Visiting home, or reuniting with relatives, we bump into our younger selves.  Dependent, less competent, locked into family or community roles we may have long since left.   Oftentimes these self portraits aren't held so much by others as projected by us.  Boundaries shift, alliances conflict, and sometimes we fall apart.
We may also struggle to see others as they see themselves without us, and call them back into roles that no longer fit.

Reunions seem to work best when we notice our thoughts and judgments, and remind ourselves they are just that-- impressions and projections, not facts.  I read in a book on some subject seemingly unrelated to therapy-- I think it was economics-- that people are all looking through their own very narrow aluminum tubes, and thinking they are seeing the same thing that others see, looking at different points through their tubes.  When we can rise above ourselves take an eagle eye view, we gain understanding and compassion.  We get that in any given moment in time, we are acting with the limitations with us right then-- just like everyone else.  Sometimes we are being very limited.  We snap and complain, out of tiredness or just confusion from being out of our element or stretched past our resources.  We overfunction, out of hopes we will be shown the love we need.  We isolate, out of fear we don't belong.  And yet we still want acceptance, or at least recognition of our validity.  As do those we love, acting out of their own limitations of the moment.

If you find yourself with loved ones trying hard to conjure up some love, see if you can show them the same acceptance for who they are as you are hoping them to show you.  Even or especially if you disagree with their choices.  In between reminiscing in the sweetness or horror of how things used to be, remember to be curious about how things are now for them, and who they are becoming.  Relinquish your internalized limitations for them and maybe they can do the same for you.  If worse comes to worst, try the OLA strategy.

As hard as you try, no one can escape the horror of Christmas, so you may as well be with your own family."—Liz Lemon, 30 Rock

May the holidays and the new year find your heart ever expanding,
Jana